It seems as though this new media project is becoming less and less about ideas and form and more and more about just getting media that plays sufficiently.

I guess it’s inevitable that in such a short time frame everything that could possibly go wrong probably would. I’m beginning to feel ashamed by the skills I once boasted about. I feel overly rushed, to the point where I’m just longing for something to work and not worrying too much about what that is.

The things I had hoped to experiment with seemed to have all slipped from my grasp. But I feel as though I’m at the beginning of thinking in a more tangible way about approaches for future projects. I’m finding myself increasingly more interested in form over content – I used to solely be concerned with content, charting change is good.

I’m finishing up the project I’ve been working on with Tori, which feels like a bit of a relief but it’s also something I’m interested in taking up as a larger project. There is also a looming anxiety over whether the media used to screen the piece will be able to retain the work’s specificities.

Which I guess brings me back to troubleshooting. I wish I understood more about screen resolutions and transferring data from one system to another – I do realize the troubleshooting nightmares are forever connected to the mediums I choose to work in, I sometimes just wish the answers were in closer proximity to me.

I’m also beginning to crash. As in shut down. As in, I need to start getting some sleep.